// Passing time//

This week I endured two of the events that I had planned. I’d been putting them off for a very long time because I didn’t know if I was in proper shape to really enjoy them. Well, it turns out I didn’t just endure them but I thoroughly enjoyed both the soccer game and the long ass bike ride.

The soccer game was incredible. This is what I learned during those 90 minutes:

1. I can still play a full 90 minute soccer game (I didn’t sub out at all).

2. I can still sprint like a mother fucker.

3. My skills are surprisingly in tact, even after a 6 year hiatus.

4. There’s still activities out there that mean a hell of a lot to me, that nobody in the world can take away from me.

5. I still look pretty dang cute in a uniform ;)

My bicycle ride was awesome as well. It was more challenging than I thought it would be. This is what I learned:

1. Proper bicycle shorts are essential. My ass hurts, and if I’m ever going to do the Seattle to Portland Bicycle Classic I’m going to need something with a little padding.

2. Probably a good idea to give myself more time to properly recover after a first soccer game before I decide to ride 32 miles on my bicycle (I still can’t walk properly).

3. Seattle is gorgeous.

4. Listening to great music, feeling the sun on your face, and the wind in your hair is something that can be enjoyed even without a sports car.

This is the route that I took:

Destination spot in Kenmore, WA

Much of the trail looks like this - with Lake Washington off to the right.

And this is the final count - captured on my RunKeeper app. You think I really burned 1395 calories?? Hope so!!

// You don’t say.//

SCORPIO May, 09, 2012
Someone is jealous of you, Scorpio. This kind of thing has happened to you before. After all, you are sexy, smart, and generally good at what you do. But this time it may have bigger implications, because the one who envies you is probably someone with some kind of influence. Even though this person may not intentionally cause you trouble, he or she is probably quite insecure, and may say something or do something that could make life more difficult. Your best bet is to respond to any unkind comments with kindness, even though that may not be your first impulse.

Pretty sure this horoscope was meant for last July when my life’s shit hit the fan. Jealousy is the root of all evil.

// Scorpio_May 8//

SCORPIO May, 08, 2012
You have put up with a certain challenge or an uncomfortable situation for far too long now. You may be wondering what you ever did to deserve the hassles you’ve been dealing with lately. And the answer is that you did nothing wrong. You are, though, in a period of transformation. And transformation isn’t always easy. There are always steps to take and things to learn before you get where you want to be. But take heart, Scorpio, because you are just about there. Dealing with  your current situation in an optimistic way and with a good attitude will get you there faster.

Thank baby Jesus for this horoscope. And it’s so crazy that it’s being said right after all that crap I wrote yesterday about “transitions.” I just gotta say I really hope that I’m “just about there.”

And I leave you with sweet jams.

First Listen: Beach House, Bloom

Absolute Garbage

// Shaping Up//

The title of this post is meant to be slightly ambiguous, and has many meanings.

1. I’m shaping up mentally

2. I’m shaping up physically

1. A few months back I wrote about being more present. That really began my transition. Transition from everything in my past, transition from those things that were good, that praised my efforts, to those things that were bad, that harmed me in some way. Transitions from past lives to present living. I’m still very much in this transition but I feel like I’m gradually getting closer to where I’m meant to be. I’m definitely getting closer to feeling more ‘sane’ in my mind. I want to say getting closer to feeling back to myself but I think a lot of this change is about letting my old self go - letting the arrogance slip away, the misconceptions, confusion, self-deprecation. I’m not running anymore, but I’m finding the truth in myself every damn day. And it’s exhausting, but I need to do it.

2. I’ve always been conscious of my health, and fitness, but I’m taking it to a new level. Setting goals for myself has helped a lot, and one goal is to lose 10 lbs (to get myself back to my ‘ideal’ weight. I’ve already lost 5 lbs.) I’m trying to listen to myself more, and one thing that I neglect a lot (until she comes out in a blazing glory, which gets me into trouble), is my adventurous inner child. She needs tending to, and she needs to be respected and heard. That being said, I’m allowing myself to be more adventurous in what I believe to be healthy ways that will allow room for growth.

Along with my already busy gym schedule, I’m taking spinning classes on a weekly basis, as well as 1 Bikram Yoga class a week. My co-worker Val and I are going on a full day hike to Boulder River - where we’ll have a picnic at the summit (see first image below). I’ve signed up as a sub on a co-ed soccer team (I haven’t played soccer for a few years now…hopefully it’s like riding a bike). So Thursday evenings this summer I’ll be busy on the soccer field, and finally I’ve agreed to try rock climbing with my rooommate (eek…I’m not into heights, but I want to try new things). This Saturday I’ve planned a 30 mile bike ride for myself. I’ll begin at my house at sunset (6am) and end at a cute little park that has views of the city (see image 2). I’m stoked! All of these things should definitely quench that little girl’s need for adventure…at least for awhile).

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